Thursday, July 21, 2011

I'm going to have such a hard time staying Goth.

Sometimes, its just very hard to be goth. What's more hard is trying to pretty much announce to people that don't know "Yes, I'm a Goth, bow down to me you mortal fool" without actually saying this. Why does it matter? ... Okay, it really doesn't, I just want some one to consider me a goth (even a babybat) IRL. Which, considering my social life is very limited at the time being, has not happened. *Sob.*

And yet, the soonest chances to do this? Some of the most Goth-Free places.

The first is a beach party. With my family. Yes, this includes my 80 year old grandmother who thinks I need fangs for "Confidence" because I'm insecure and fangs will somehow help that. Sigh... She means well. Sure, I'm not going to go wearing a super-fancy black lace dress and boots, but I still want to look undead goth! Why? Because I want to. Any more questions? Good.

Sure, my swimsuit isn't too terrible- Black with white floral pattern. But I don't think an eyeliner spiderweb would like swimming... On like a like totally unrelated subject- Does anyone know a good water-proof eyeliner I can find at a drugstore or walmart and won't cost a fortune? Oh well. Hey, maybe I can finally convince my mom to let me take my parasol out in public! (Without her disowning me!) And I might have a sunblock review after this (I just got Neutorgena UltraSheer Dry-Touch Sunblock, because, come on, who likes wearing sticky sunblock? So far, its pretty nice. Not shiny at all. Not sure how it holds up in the sun for a long time, though.)

Does anyone having tips for keeping my ever-so-dreary look in possibly one of the worst places to be a goth? (seriously, sun, sand and screaming like a girl when/if fish get close to me? So goth, I know.)

It occured to me I'm over using the word "Goth". Oh my goth, I should probably stop that.



Then I have a "Vacation". Why the quotation marks? Because its just my mom going to see all her friends that live across the country. Sure, there are going to be a couple girls my age, but... Well, I don't know them well and haven't seen them in over two years.

Why am I going? you ask. Because its either Get Out Of The House For A Change, or staying home alone for four days, or staying with my older brother (and... Yeah, rather not. He hasn't really known (or cared about) me since I was little Reesa), or staying with my friend (I don't like staying at another person's house for days. I really hate not knowing where anything goes or how anything works (Seriously, her kitchen sink confuses me.))

And why should I care about how I look? Please see here:



But... I'm sure my spiderweb eyeliner (Yes, still talking about that) would wear off after ten hours in a car.

Complaint time: TEN FREAKING HOURS! At least its my mom's friend's van, not our itty bitty car. But tennnnnnnn hoursssssss. I'm going to be so bored! And its going to Misery Missouri, which is apparently very hot and humid in august. At least the cabin has airconditioning. And looks cool. Oh Goth, what if it doesn't have wifi?!?!?!!!!!?1?!"!!!?!!?!!!!?!?!?!?!

But, yes, I still want to look like an undead fairy pirate. And I have a terrible time packing what I'll actually need, and nothing more. (Last vacation (May) was to a waterpark for 2 nights. Enough clothes to last a week, 4 swimsuits, was it four or five pairs of shoes? And all the makeup I owned... And 4 stuffed animals... And some other stuff.) But, um, I like totally need my parasol. (Speaking of that, I want to decorate it soon. Ideas?) And my corset. And my long velvet skirt. And of COURSE I need my Mad Hatter tee, and I bet some fishnets could be used, and I can't forget my black skirt with crooked silver pinstripes, and there's my crochet short-sleeved cardigan, and some scarves for my hair, and I'll need a few pairs of shoes...

Speaking of shoes: LACE CONVERSE (knock-offs.). At Walmart. Normally, I hate sneakers of all kinds- Or pretty much 90% of shoes that aren't sandals.

Anyway, its going to be hard to decide if I will actually be able to wear those clothes. Is velvet suitable fabric for summer?

And then there is trying to look nice after a ten hour car ride. And more importantly- NOT BEING BORED OUT OF MY MIND! My laptop will die after like 2 hours, I can't read in a car without feeling sick, I don't have a portable DVD player (or a Doctor Who DVD... But maybe... If I can find a good price...) and listening to an MP3 player while staring out the window? Gets old after a while. And sadly, I can never sleep in a car. So, to keep to the theme of the blog- Does anyone know any gothy crafts I can do in a car? I was thinking making stuffed bats out of felt. (Very simple bats, mind you.) And I have been wanting to stitch a heart on a shirt (like Emilie Autumn) and maybe taking it further, by drenching the front of it with red fabric paint (too look like my heart was ripped out). Aren't I just so innocent and cute? But that couldn't be done in a car. I have been wanting to make a hat. Maybe I'll do that. (Or at least add a black lace veil to an existing hat. Because I want to.)

Speaking of black lace veils, and I mentioned Doctor Who a little while ago...


In one episode (the first one with River, second part) there is that woman. Why is she dressed in victorian mourning clothes? No clue. There is a reason for the veil- But the skirt? But since she is extremely smart at that point, I decide to take it as a compliment, saying smart people are goths.

Well its really late and I'm getting even more scatterbrained... So... Bye.

26 comments:

Bixie Willow said...

http://www.wikihow.com/Look-Goth-While-Traveling-for-a-Long-Time-on-a-Plane You're not going to be on a plane, but that might help with still looking goth while traveling. And you mentioned something about wanting to decorate you parasol. http://goth-to-goth.webs.com/apps/blog/show/4578122-how-to-make-your-own-parasol That post has an example of a simple way you could decorate. Oh, or you could tie black and white lace around the handle. Hmmm.....what could you do in the car? You could...try to learn to crochet(?). Truthfully I don't know. Four hours is about the longest I've been shoved into a car and I survived by listening to music, staring gloomily out the window, and demanding every ten minutes to know if we were there yet. Good luck! Oh, and I think over packing is just a goth thing. Many goths I know have that same problem.

Teresa said...

Longest I've been in a car was 20 hours, in norway, with 3 little children (who I couldn't even understand). THAT WAS TERRIBLE.

Tenebris In Lux said...

I've been crowded in a taxi with four little cousins. That didn't last long -- but for Chicago traffic that day of a trip? A miracle.

Let's see: best advice to give you? Try wearing clothing that aren't black. Sometimes you just have to. Black absorbs sunlight, and if you don't drink a lot of water then you might faint or something worse! Right now I'm wearing a longside grey shirt with thin sleeves (and yeah, black slacks!). Try wearing clothing that can cover arms and legs, but are still loose. Lighter fabrics help.

I'm not super fancy, but I envy those who have a parasol! I have a chunky black umbrella, but it serves me well. Also, wherever you are, try to seek shaded areas when you spy them.

As for the makeup .. there are a ton of goth blogs floating around that have reviews of products. I like to look up items on Amazon, compare prices, and look at reviews .. and then see if a store near me stocks it.

Hope this helps!

Kitty said...

I love your blog!!!!!!!!!!
I'm 13 too... well I just say I am 14 because the sooner I get older the sooner I will be able to dress goth, anyway, I WILL be 14 in October.
I have your exact same problems, visiting my adorable mums friends, swimsuits...
I just came back from a 3 day trip to Ireland, and OMG...
I do read in the car, and I write stories too, so I think about the characters.
I need my IPod when I travel, because mum loves Il Divo and all sort of crap.
I hope you have a nice journey...
Kitty
PD: one of my biggest problems is finding other goths, any advice???

Teresa said...

@Kitty:

Thank yoooooouuuuu!

When in october? Because on October 6th, I FINALLY stop being 13! I hate being 13.

I don't know any goths in real life... Only online. In the little realm of gothic blogs.

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AislingChild said...

@Anon Ugh, being rude is bad. Tut tut tut (putting aside how stupid it is to be rude on the internet, LOL! Teresa isn't emo. Learn that.)

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AislingChild said...

What picture? And who are you talking to, because earlier you called me 40 as well

Teresa said...

Raise your hand if you hate idiot trolls who don't know the difference between Emo and Goth and assume its insulting. *Raises hand*

AislingChild said...

*raises hand*

Kitty said...

*Raises hand*
I'm so happy to meet fellow babybats...
October 22 near Halloween...

AislingChild said...

I'm already planning my halloween outfit :)

Kitty said...

I couldn't sleep the other day, as I was thinking about the outfit...

I'm being serious.
My mum doesn't let me dress gothy, beacuse she thinks it's all like a halloween outfit...
You're so lucky.

Teresa said...

*sees nothing wrong with it looking like a halloween costume*

Just try to wear more black.

Kitty said...

I wear aaaaaaaalll black and my mum is freaking out *evil laugh*
However, she's the boss...¿?
I think I will be able to dress more gothy over the years.
Everyone thinks I'm on a phase.
I don't really care.
But I got a bit upset when a 20 year old preppy girl told me I wasn't a goth

Teresa said...

Yes, because she must know what goth is. I know I'm not to insult other subcultures/fashions, but I really do not like preppy people.

Don't wear aaaaaaaalll black, try some jewel tones. And *secret* I only wear black when I leave the house. I really can't be bothered when I'm at home. At the moment I'm wearing a purple "Witch in training" tshirt and orange pajama shorts. *All goth cred gone*

Kitty said...

I know, I'm being ironic...
And I really don't care what I wear when I am home:D
About the preppy girl-oh, and I friend of hers I forgot, not preppy just...normal- they really made me feel bad.
I spent a lot of time deciding wether I was goth or not-does everybody else have that phase?-
and maybe I was not as gothy as I am now but I have always been the weird kid at school and read classics happily...
I hate people who don't know you very well telling you to be yourself.
This summer my Maths teacher-who had prevously spoken with my mother about this-said, like if she was Gandalf and I, Frodo: Be yourself!
This drived me crazy...

Teresa said...

You're a goth if you want to be. Simple enough. You need to have a certain brand of crazy to want to be one, and that does sort of make you goth. And I hate people who tell me to "Be myself" and object to goth. MYSELF IS GOTH!

Kitty said...

We should make somekind of babybat union, to show the oldies that goth IS NOT DEAD!
Our blogs united or something...
Mail me or whatever...

AislingChild said...

I like the sound of a babybat union ;)

Kitty said...

yay, we could use THE BOOK
and make graveyard tea parties ;D

ultimategothguide said...

Um, guys, am I an 'oldie'? :-S

Teresa said...

Ancient.

ultimategothguide said...

Yikes. o.O

Teresa said...

Be happy- at least you can drive and get a job. We're stuck being immature birdbrains for a few years.

Yay.