An explanation of my absense.

I haven't been posting because, well, school. Its draining me of not only my energy, but my thoughtful snarkiness- All I'm left with is some insanity which is spent on roleplaying. Plus, school seems to be poisoning me. You know how peer pressure supposedly makes you do drugs or skip school or something like that? Yeah, it makes me listen to metal and want bright green skinny jeans.

Luckily, halloween is approaching rappidly, so say hello to a chance to wear more insane outfits. Why yes, I do happen to ow a pair of kitty ears that i wear at any possible chance (at home). And I have a purse I take to school that is the face of a halloween kitty. It has ears. And I have a spooooOooooOooky halloween shirt. Hooray :) I just need to find a spiderweb skirt.

I also need to stop wearing jeans. I don't know why I am, nor do I know why I recently bought them. I am not a jeans person. But the bus stop is cold, and skirts aren't exactly good for keeping in warmth, so... Jeans are an easier option. I should just wear my ankles length skirts with leggings.

There is also something I am currently buzzing about... THE NEWEST FASHION TRENDS ARE SO NICE! Whatever designer decided to use black lace and princess seams and all sorts of potentially goth stuff was a genius. You know, people never assume fashion designers have much power, but think about it. A popular designer uses something that people like, ex. princess seams. Other designers copy it, and soon the shops are filling up with princess seamed shirts, and due to them being available, more and more people wear them. So one fashion designer can dress millions of people.


Anyway, back to why I'm not here anymore. I just don't have anything to post! I'm sure you don't feel like listening to me rant about school. I haven't had many great fashion finds (Though I did see an Edward Cullen shirt at the thrift store that was just begging to be covered with a big red fabric paint X...) nor any halloween tutorials or anything goth at all. I haven't even been looking undead at school! Gasp! I need to fix that! (A tint of blue foundation and a softer black eyeshadow, perhaps?)

I need to compile a list of what school has done to me.

- Gotten rid of any chance of being nocturnal.
- Makes me desire brightly colored skinny jeans.
- Making me care about blending in- Well, not like I want to blend in, but its making me more aware about how easy it is to accidently blend in the crowd. I need to stand out!
- Made me decide to dye my hair bright red. Which now is faded pink...
- Made me realise how impractical black velvet really is.
- Made me listen to metal. (Okay, maybe not the school, but the friends I made in school)
- Made me too forgetful to finish this list.

But I have to say, I do like drawing class...


And speaking of metal, I'm just gonna share a song I like by the 1 metal band I love.

Just a little thing to make you depressed.

Okay, so I've been looking around for halloween costume ideas. I'm thinking of drowning victim, kinda Ophelia-like. But I'm not sure. Well, one of the questions had this, seriously written.

"And I prefer the scarier type of costumes. Vampires are okay, but not the cheesy Dracula type. And I was wondering, do you think that if I dressed up as Alice Cullen from the Twilight Series, people would know who it was? If so, how should I do it? Vampire fangs & designer clothes? lol. :)"

 

CHEESY DRACULA TYPE?! Okay, so Dracula, ACTUAL VAMPIRE, is cheesy, but a sparkly little fairy princess isn't?!

OMG DOCTOR WHO!

I found something really awesome for doctor who fans!

Mmkay, you know the jacket 11 always wears?

Well check THIS out!


EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

It even has the circle things on the elbows!

And its $30!!!!! (Pretty good price for a blazer)



In other news: I am not at school. Not by choice. My alarm clocks didn't go off, and my mom thought I shouldn't be woken up because I "don't feel good" (allergies). Either I hate her for thinking that because I wanted to go to school today, or I hate her for ignoring her alarm, which goes off for an HOUR every day, because I am sick of having to wake her up EVERY DAY (and having her object to it, and try to make me make her coffee when I'm trying to get ready for school- Get up, and make it yourself. Since when was I the responsible one?)

Color goth!

I should have known better than to say "Oh no, I'm wearing colors, I can't be goth!"

OF COURSE Goths can wear color. They don't even need to wear any black! Just look at Emilie Autumn.

Hardly any black. Still looks gothic. So, yay!

Now this blog might go from trying to survive as a babybat and examples of how to make it a little more subtle for school, to trying to convince people "Yes, Goths can look like they bathed in a rainbow" and making the gothiness more notable.

In other news, I got my hair dye today! I would have LOVED to find Electric Lava (orange) but sadly, they did not have any. Nor any Rock n' Roll red, which I heard somewhere might be the dye Emilie uses. I got Pillarbox Red, and if you google it you'll see this super bright hair. Its going to be a few shades darker, because i'm not bleaching it. I'm gonna put it in my hairs now.

So... Well...

I'm not really paying much attention to blogs at the moment. I have school, currently I have allergies, and another thing I shall discuss later on in this post.

First, I forgot to mention that I dyed my bangs again (with manic panic), this time overnight, and was pleased with the results. People keep saying they "love the blue". Uhh, thanks... Its purple...

And now I want to dye ALL of my hair. Not sure which color yet. But going into the highschool made me feel lame. I must be weird, because "peer pressure" will never make me do drugs, but it makes me consider dying my hair bright orange. Which I want to do. And I recently got my hair layered and thinned (and razored) so I could actually be able to work dye through all of it.


I hate when seasons change because I have allergies. My throat was KILLING me today. Luckily, I was mostly fine for school,  but after I got home I was miserable. And I slept some, so who knows when I'll go to bed today...


And, the more important thing...

I'm actually considering going not-goth. GASP! But lately, I've been more into colors and don't think of black as the best color in the world... I mean, I'll still be goth in spirit, but not actually dress like it all the time. No way am I giving up my black velvet skirts or black lace, but maybe not wear them together. Hmm... High school has ruined me already. I know that you don't HAVE to dress in all black to be a goth, but its one of the main points...

Maybe I'll just ditch any restrictions people think fashions have and wear what I want. I'll call it... "Psychopath Chic" (That would be such an epic name for a clothing line)

I wish school took less time.

I'm back from my third day at school. It was awful. Which is weird, cause I got a decent amount of sleep (went to bed shortly after 9 and woke up at 5). This proves I need to be tired to be happy. I need to list some complaints.

- I have been missing out on my Internet life (Yes, including reading blogs)
- I barely spoke with ANYONE I knew. Some idiot who got on the bus before me took the seat next to my friend (I wanted to talk about my plans to get a nose ring and the new bands I listened to...), the only class with him I had, we had assigned seats (alphabetical) and there was just ONE person between us, so we couldn't talk, and I was having a bad day and kept dropping stuff and getting lost so I didn't have time to talk between classes. Oh, and we don't have the same lunch time. Maybe I need to make more than one friend? Nah, I hate people.
- In health class, we had a test. Well, practice test. I knew like all of the answers and the ones I didn't know made me think "How the hell am I supposed to know that? I'm 13!". I had like 20 minutes after the test (that includes the time of class spent waiting in a line to get my health book) that I just spent staring at a wall. I need to bring a book... Oh, and one of the seniors that failed the class in a different year and had to take it again? She took FOREVER.
- I suck at drawing. I didn't really get the practice assignment, and I utterly sucked at it. This is why I hate drawing- I CAN'T DO IT! Give me some clay, you get a bowl and/or small animal. Give me some paper and scissors? Fun shades. Hell, give me the ability to draw what I feel like drawing, and you'll get a cute little cartoon. But have me sit at a desk, with uncomfortable chairs (obviously made for short people), near ANNOYING seniors, drawing ovals, and you will get me fidgety, distracted and BORED. Not to mention some crappy ovals.
- My hair looks like shit. I don't want to have to spend a ton of time on my hair in the morning, its too short to do anything with, and I just need a haircut.
- I can never find anything to make for breakfast (Partly because like everything tastes gross in the morning), and everyday I have the last lunch in the school.
- Really wish idiots would stop standing in the middle of the most crowded hallway to talk.
-  I think I have allergies. My throat hurts and I've been sneezing a bit, and if I'm not mistaken, allergy season is right about now. Maybe this caused my bad mood...
- Locker keeps jamming. I have to kick it at just the right spot. And this is coming from someone who hates making noise, so if other classes are going on (Like after I got my science book, I went to go put it in my locker and like no one was in the halls) the echoing of boot kicking locker door pains me.
- I feel utterly dressed down. A not that pretty shirt and black jeans. Extremely simple makeup.


On a positive note:
I met an Australian exchange student. No clue what her name was, but she's on my bus and asked me where it was (I didn't know either, but we found it). Who would want to go from Australia to my boring little town?

Second day of school- much better!

It feels like weeks since yesterday. School was soooooooo much better today. May we start with the basics- It felt shorter, I knew some people (okay, one person), and I didn't get lost! However, I have discovered, after years of being awesome at math, I HAVE A FEAR OF ALGEBRA. Maybe not a fear. but we had a test with I think 50 questions. I answered 8... and most were guesses. Oopsie. In my defense, some of the class was eaten up getting our math books, and it was just a practice test that we will take again at the end of the semester.

I don't know if I mentioned this yesterday, but you would not BELIEVE how many unnatural hair colors are in highschool. As well as facial piercings. Hey, maybe after I tell my mom that I can get a nose ring... And yes, my new friend and all of his friends have piercings or weird hair colors or both.

I don't know what else to say. Maybe this blog'll get interesting when I finally have some gothy experience. But right now, I'm looking up screamo bands. (New friend likes screamo or metal or whatever the hell you call it, and I thought I'd check them out. So... much... SCREAMING!)

(And bonus... New friend is on the same bus and has a locker right by mine)