Oh look. I suck at updating this thing.

Its true. I haven't even read any of the blogs I follow. Nor did I go all out for Halloween. And I haven't worn black in ages. Grrr! I'm a goth in disguise as a normie until I can afford new clothes.

Anyway. Aisling requested my homecoming pic.

The dress? Lovely. The makeup? Fantasic. The accessories? Perfectly matched. The photo? CRAP.

URGENT NEED OF BOOTS

Well, I fail at updating this. Other websites and school keep me busy, and I just have no gothy things to write about. "Color goth" just looks normal if you can't afford to dress like Emilie Autumn. At least none of my new friends ever look confused when I say I'm a color goth, they say it suits me :D.

Anyway. I currently have a pair of extremely crappy combat boots. $30 from walmart, so I wan't expecting the greatest thing. They are soooo comfortable but they are literally falling apart, and I've had them for under 2 months.

Something I would LOVE is
http://www.dmusastore.com/p-889-8417z-black-smooth.aspx
but... $120?!?! Budget-goth, please!

I'll be allowed to spend a bit more on boots than average old shoes, because a good pair of combat boots can work for 3 of the seasons, are comfortable and practical. I need something to walk around school in, will not get ruined when I have to kick my locker each time I open it, and will be able to walk in the snow.

Now... Where can I find a practical, plain (or with little design) FLAT combat boots? (I don't mean totally flat, but platforms? No thanks.)

Any help?

Birthday!

That's right. Today, October the 6th, I am officially NOT 13 ANYMORE!!! 13 sucks. It really does. Don't deny it. Just by saying you're 13, 50% of people will call you immature and give you no respect, while the other 50% expect you to be all mature.

Even though I am convinced today will suck (I don't have lunch with friends, nor do I have my favorite subject, and I honestly would rather do anything else than talk to the mini-sluts in my school. I'm not kidding, I've seen so many, they even talked about doing... stuff... with their 18 year old ex.) I feel like starting out positive will help- Up early, fancyish dress, good breakfast, about an hour to waste online.

I can't take so much math!!

I can't understand my math homework. I thought I was fine at it- Until we got a lot of our homework and quizzes handed back. ALL ZEROS!!!!! Its because I need to "Show my work". Well, most of my work is mental. I can get the correct methods by MY way. Even if I write down my steps and the correct answer, I still get it wrong! There is a certain "Method", which adds several confusing steps, and I don't understand it.

Here is a perfect example of what I'm upset over. On a quiz, I got all but one right. The one I didn't get right was due to using the comfusing method. I GOT A ZERO. Its not fair! I try hard, I spend a lot of time on my homework, and still I don't get any credit?

I blame my teacher. Maybe I wouldn't fail if the evil toad (Yes, I do think she looks like a toad.) would actually TEACH- All she does is make us copy notes, writes a few questions on the board, which she solves 10 seconds later, and I don't understand HOW. The notes don't make sense. "Use distrubutive to get rid of ( )" WTF?! What does that mean?!

And, she snaps at people for asking questions. Not only is there a lot of "Save your questions until the end!" but this one person asked a very good question, which someone else in the class was going to ask too, and he got yelled at for wasting her time with a stupid question. I'm not kidding, she basically said that.

I can't do my homework, I don't understand it. We have a thing called zap (zeroes aren't permitted), where you spend lunch in a room making up your work. Maybe the people there can help me. Maybe I should transfer out of the class.

I'm exhausted and I wanted to cry since math, and my eyes started to sting everytime I thought of my zeroes or my homework. Right now, I'm silently sobbing and wishing my mom was home to help me. I don't know what to do...


On a brighter note, I may have convinced my science teacher to show Doctor Who clips in class.

WHAT'S WITH ALL THE SPAM?!

I keep getting emails that some anonymous is posting random links. All the same. On a lot of my posts. They seem to delete themselves. I could put up the word verification, but those things really annoy me... Plus its not like the comments stay. But its ANNOYING! Has anyone else got an outbreak of spam?

An explanation of my absense.

I haven't been posting because, well, school. Its draining me of not only my energy, but my thoughtful snarkiness- All I'm left with is some insanity which is spent on roleplaying. Plus, school seems to be poisoning me. You know how peer pressure supposedly makes you do drugs or skip school or something like that? Yeah, it makes me listen to metal and want bright green skinny jeans.

Luckily, halloween is approaching rappidly, so say hello to a chance to wear more insane outfits. Why yes, I do happen to ow a pair of kitty ears that i wear at any possible chance (at home). And I have a purse I take to school that is the face of a halloween kitty. It has ears. And I have a spooooOooooOooky halloween shirt. Hooray :) I just need to find a spiderweb skirt.

I also need to stop wearing jeans. I don't know why I am, nor do I know why I recently bought them. I am not a jeans person. But the bus stop is cold, and skirts aren't exactly good for keeping in warmth, so... Jeans are an easier option. I should just wear my ankles length skirts with leggings.

There is also something I am currently buzzing about... THE NEWEST FASHION TRENDS ARE SO NICE! Whatever designer decided to use black lace and princess seams and all sorts of potentially goth stuff was a genius. You know, people never assume fashion designers have much power, but think about it. A popular designer uses something that people like, ex. princess seams. Other designers copy it, and soon the shops are filling up with princess seamed shirts, and due to them being available, more and more people wear them. So one fashion designer can dress millions of people.


Anyway, back to why I'm not here anymore. I just don't have anything to post! I'm sure you don't feel like listening to me rant about school. I haven't had many great fashion finds (Though I did see an Edward Cullen shirt at the thrift store that was just begging to be covered with a big red fabric paint X...) nor any halloween tutorials or anything goth at all. I haven't even been looking undead at school! Gasp! I need to fix that! (A tint of blue foundation and a softer black eyeshadow, perhaps?)

I need to compile a list of what school has done to me.

- Gotten rid of any chance of being nocturnal.
- Makes me desire brightly colored skinny jeans.
- Making me care about blending in- Well, not like I want to blend in, but its making me more aware about how easy it is to accidently blend in the crowd. I need to stand out!
- Made me decide to dye my hair bright red. Which now is faded pink...
- Made me realise how impractical black velvet really is.
- Made me listen to metal. (Okay, maybe not the school, but the friends I made in school)
- Made me too forgetful to finish this list.

But I have to say, I do like drawing class...


And speaking of metal, I'm just gonna share a song I like by the 1 metal band I love.

Just a little thing to make you depressed.

Okay, so I've been looking around for halloween costume ideas. I'm thinking of drowning victim, kinda Ophelia-like. But I'm not sure. Well, one of the questions had this, seriously written.

"And I prefer the scarier type of costumes. Vampires are okay, but not the cheesy Dracula type. And I was wondering, do you think that if I dressed up as Alice Cullen from the Twilight Series, people would know who it was? If so, how should I do it? Vampire fangs & designer clothes? lol. :)"

 

CHEESY DRACULA TYPE?! Okay, so Dracula, ACTUAL VAMPIRE, is cheesy, but a sparkly little fairy princess isn't?!