I can't take so much math!!

I can't understand my math homework. I thought I was fine at it- Until we got a lot of our homework and quizzes handed back. ALL ZEROS!!!!! Its because I need to "Show my work". Well, most of my work is mental. I can get the correct methods by MY way. Even if I write down my steps and the correct answer, I still get it wrong! There is a certain "Method", which adds several confusing steps, and I don't understand it.

Here is a perfect example of what I'm upset over. On a quiz, I got all but one right. The one I didn't get right was due to using the comfusing method. I GOT A ZERO. Its not fair! I try hard, I spend a lot of time on my homework, and still I don't get any credit?

I blame my teacher. Maybe I wouldn't fail if the evil toad (Yes, I do think she looks like a toad.) would actually TEACH- All she does is make us copy notes, writes a few questions on the board, which she solves 10 seconds later, and I don't understand HOW. The notes don't make sense. "Use distrubutive to get rid of ( )" WTF?! What does that mean?!

And, she snaps at people for asking questions. Not only is there a lot of "Save your questions until the end!" but this one person asked a very good question, which someone else in the class was going to ask too, and he got yelled at for wasting her time with a stupid question. I'm not kidding, she basically said that.

I can't do my homework, I don't understand it. We have a thing called zap (zeroes aren't permitted), where you spend lunch in a room making up your work. Maybe the people there can help me. Maybe I should transfer out of the class.

I'm exhausted and I wanted to cry since math, and my eyes started to sting everytime I thought of my zeroes or my homework. Right now, I'm silently sobbing and wishing my mom was home to help me. I don't know what to do...


On a brighter note, I may have convinced my science teacher to show Doctor Who clips in class.

WHAT'S WITH ALL THE SPAM?!

I keep getting emails that some anonymous is posting random links. All the same. On a lot of my posts. They seem to delete themselves. I could put up the word verification, but those things really annoy me... Plus its not like the comments stay. But its ANNOYING! Has anyone else got an outbreak of spam?

An explanation of my absense.

I haven't been posting because, well, school. Its draining me of not only my energy, but my thoughtful snarkiness- All I'm left with is some insanity which is spent on roleplaying. Plus, school seems to be poisoning me. You know how peer pressure supposedly makes you do drugs or skip school or something like that? Yeah, it makes me listen to metal and want bright green skinny jeans.

Luckily, halloween is approaching rappidly, so say hello to a chance to wear more insane outfits. Why yes, I do happen to ow a pair of kitty ears that i wear at any possible chance (at home). And I have a purse I take to school that is the face of a halloween kitty. It has ears. And I have a spooooOooooOooky halloween shirt. Hooray :) I just need to find a spiderweb skirt.

I also need to stop wearing jeans. I don't know why I am, nor do I know why I recently bought them. I am not a jeans person. But the bus stop is cold, and skirts aren't exactly good for keeping in warmth, so... Jeans are an easier option. I should just wear my ankles length skirts with leggings.

There is also something I am currently buzzing about... THE NEWEST FASHION TRENDS ARE SO NICE! Whatever designer decided to use black lace and princess seams and all sorts of potentially goth stuff was a genius. You know, people never assume fashion designers have much power, but think about it. A popular designer uses something that people like, ex. princess seams. Other designers copy it, and soon the shops are filling up with princess seamed shirts, and due to them being available, more and more people wear them. So one fashion designer can dress millions of people.


Anyway, back to why I'm not here anymore. I just don't have anything to post! I'm sure you don't feel like listening to me rant about school. I haven't had many great fashion finds (Though I did see an Edward Cullen shirt at the thrift store that was just begging to be covered with a big red fabric paint X...) nor any halloween tutorials or anything goth at all. I haven't even been looking undead at school! Gasp! I need to fix that! (A tint of blue foundation and a softer black eyeshadow, perhaps?)

I need to compile a list of what school has done to me.

- Gotten rid of any chance of being nocturnal.
- Makes me desire brightly colored skinny jeans.
- Making me care about blending in- Well, not like I want to blend in, but its making me more aware about how easy it is to accidently blend in the crowd. I need to stand out!
- Made me decide to dye my hair bright red. Which now is faded pink...
- Made me realise how impractical black velvet really is.
- Made me listen to metal. (Okay, maybe not the school, but the friends I made in school)
- Made me too forgetful to finish this list.

But I have to say, I do like drawing class...


And speaking of metal, I'm just gonna share a song I like by the 1 metal band I love.

Just a little thing to make you depressed.

Okay, so I've been looking around for halloween costume ideas. I'm thinking of drowning victim, kinda Ophelia-like. But I'm not sure. Well, one of the questions had this, seriously written.

"And I prefer the scarier type of costumes. Vampires are okay, but not the cheesy Dracula type. And I was wondering, do you think that if I dressed up as Alice Cullen from the Twilight Series, people would know who it was? If so, how should I do it? Vampire fangs & designer clothes? lol. :)"

 

CHEESY DRACULA TYPE?! Okay, so Dracula, ACTUAL VAMPIRE, is cheesy, but a sparkly little fairy princess isn't?!

OMG DOCTOR WHO!

I found something really awesome for doctor who fans!

Mmkay, you know the jacket 11 always wears?

Well check THIS out!


EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

It even has the circle things on the elbows!

And its $30!!!!! (Pretty good price for a blazer)



In other news: I am not at school. Not by choice. My alarm clocks didn't go off, and my mom thought I shouldn't be woken up because I "don't feel good" (allergies). Either I hate her for thinking that because I wanted to go to school today, or I hate her for ignoring her alarm, which goes off for an HOUR every day, because I am sick of having to wake her up EVERY DAY (and having her object to it, and try to make me make her coffee when I'm trying to get ready for school- Get up, and make it yourself. Since when was I the responsible one?)

Color goth!

I should have known better than to say "Oh no, I'm wearing colors, I can't be goth!"

OF COURSE Goths can wear color. They don't even need to wear any black! Just look at Emilie Autumn.

Hardly any black. Still looks gothic. So, yay!

Now this blog might go from trying to survive as a babybat and examples of how to make it a little more subtle for school, to trying to convince people "Yes, Goths can look like they bathed in a rainbow" and making the gothiness more notable.

In other news, I got my hair dye today! I would have LOVED to find Electric Lava (orange) but sadly, they did not have any. Nor any Rock n' Roll red, which I heard somewhere might be the dye Emilie uses. I got Pillarbox Red, and if you google it you'll see this super bright hair. Its going to be a few shades darker, because i'm not bleaching it. I'm gonna put it in my hairs now.

So... Well...

I'm not really paying much attention to blogs at the moment. I have school, currently I have allergies, and another thing I shall discuss later on in this post.

First, I forgot to mention that I dyed my bangs again (with manic panic), this time overnight, and was pleased with the results. People keep saying they "love the blue". Uhh, thanks... Its purple...

And now I want to dye ALL of my hair. Not sure which color yet. But going into the highschool made me feel lame. I must be weird, because "peer pressure" will never make me do drugs, but it makes me consider dying my hair bright orange. Which I want to do. And I recently got my hair layered and thinned (and razored) so I could actually be able to work dye through all of it.


I hate when seasons change because I have allergies. My throat was KILLING me today. Luckily, I was mostly fine for school,  but after I got home I was miserable. And I slept some, so who knows when I'll go to bed today...


And, the more important thing...

I'm actually considering going not-goth. GASP! But lately, I've been more into colors and don't think of black as the best color in the world... I mean, I'll still be goth in spirit, but not actually dress like it all the time. No way am I giving up my black velvet skirts or black lace, but maybe not wear them together. Hmm... High school has ruined me already. I know that you don't HAVE to dress in all black to be a goth, but its one of the main points...

Maybe I'll just ditch any restrictions people think fashions have and wear what I want. I'll call it... "Psychopath Chic" (That would be such an epic name for a clothing line)